Hello my loved Sweeties,
It’s time for another stop on our Journeys, a check-in with one another. A place of hugs, gentle soothing whispers, songs of triumphs and you-can-do-its.
“It’s funny how, in this journey of life, even though we may begin at different times and places, our paths cross with others so that we may share our love, compassion, observations, and hope. This is a design of God that I appreciate and cherish.”― Steve Maraboli
So let’s have a chat about where we are right now.
Here’s what’s going on with me. For as long as I can remember I’ve been interested in woman’s spirituality, paganism, and Wicca. I wasn’t raised in a very religious household but I did go to a Christian church for a few years when I was very young. When I started studying other paths I found myself forming a dislike for the Christian beliefs. It’s never been something that I gave very much thought to, or something that I read a lot about. Until lately. I’ve been very interested in the story of Mary Magdalene.
My interest in her kind of popped up out of nowhere and now I am very interested in her story and her place in history. I think part of it stems from how I identify with how she transformed. She was seen as a sort of fallen woman and upon embracing her spirituality and her devotion to it, she became something more. Good stuff.
I’ve also been reading The Red Tent by Anita Diamant which again goes back to biblical references even though it’s fiction. It is the story of Dinah, daughter of Jacob, and her story from a woman’s point of view. I’m only past the first 100 pages, and so far the story centers around Jacob’s four wives, and Dinah and their lives as well as their time spent in the Red Tent. The Red Tent is where women were sent during menstruation every month, as well as where they birthed their children, and shared their secrets.
It’s really empowering from a female perspective and it has really deepened my need for sisterhood.
What else is going on with me? I’ve talked a lot about the friendship that I let go of last year. I am going to end up seeing her next week. Her husband is my best friend, as well as my co-worker, and very bestest computer game partner. He and I have been friends for almost five years now. Anyway, I invited him and his kids to go see the Avengers with me. I told him that if he felt called to invite her as well I would be okay with it. I didn’t want to cause a jealousy issue or make anyone feel left out. He did end up extending the invitation to her and now I think I regret it.
It is not that I have any ill-will towards her, quite the opposite. It has been a year since our friendship ended and I secretly wish that things could be okay. That this would lead to a re-kindling of our friendship. That things might really be better. The truth is, I believe that those feelings are one-sided. I do not believe she would want a friendship with me and I’m okay with that. I just know that I have tender feelings and I do not want them to be hurt.
I have mentioned I have trouble letting go, right?
Ultimately I know that it’ll be okay and I’ll have a fine time. If I do end up feeling fragile afterwards, that’s okay too. I know what to do to take care of me. I know just the salves and balms to rub lovingly on those sore spots. I just needed to get it out a bit.
So this week I ask you, what struggles are you having? What are you loving, enjoying, reading? What are you proud of? If you have a blog, post the link to your favorite post of the week. If you like to photograph, let us see the picture! I love to spend just a few moments with you, sharing in your life and in your journey.
Much love to you sweet soul.