Good morning my darlinghearts! I am so happy to have my fingers dancing on the keyboard again! In case you didn’t know, I’ve been in the midst of moving to a new apartment and between packing, moving, and unpacking, I haven’t had time to breathe.
It is so nice to finally take a deep, full, breath.
I struggle with depression and anxiety, sometimes to the point that it overwhelms me, stifles me, and cripples me for days, sometimes weeks, rarely months. I was scared that this whole process was going to be a trigger that started the downward spiral.
Depression never showed up and Anxiety only stayed for a little bit.
I think with the whole process of moving, anxiety is to be expected. It’s probably impossible to move and not feel anxious in some way. This was my second time moving since becoming an adult and it was a lot more difficult than my first move, eight years ago, when my books and stuffed animals outnumbered my other belongings.
Did I have anxiety attacks? Yes I did. There were only about three in a two week period, which in the great scheme of things isn’t so bad. I was feeling so ungrounded and so unsettled. I am a homebody, I love the sense of security that I feel at home. I am very connected with it, so the fact that I had to leave, rocked my world in a bad way. However, I breathed as well as I could, I tried to keep my self-talk as positive as I could, and I believed that everything would work out as it should. I even made this my ringtone.
“I am exactly where I need to be, I need to be exactly where I am.”
In the last few weeks, I’ve had to be strong, despite the fact that I didn’t want to. I wanted someone to take care of me. I wanted to let go of control. I wanted to be a child again. I wanted a partner to deal with things so I didn’t have to.
When it came down to it, the only one I had to rely on was myself.
This week’s oracle is Sekhmet, the Egyptian Sun Goddess. Her name means “strong and mighty”. Sekhmet is closely associated with Lions and is sometimes depicted with the head of a lion. She is fierce and protective and is great to call upon if you need some of those energies.
This is what Sekhmet wants from you.
Sekhmet wants you to see yourself as strong and victorious. Don’t complain, don’t blame others, embrace your strength and refuse to be a victim. See yourself as the beautiful embodiment of feminine strength that you are.
Don’t underestimate yourself, don’t indulge in negative thinking, and most of all, believe in yourself and your power.
P.S I love you a whole bunch!