“Everything is going to be okay.” If you need that message today then I pass it on to you in a soft voice, and with a warm, gentle, hug. You’re not alone. And maybe those words don’t apply to your situation and in that case, I offer you the hug. Sometimes things are incredibly hard and it feels like you’re being swallowed up by all of it. Please hang in there.
If you’ve been reading my blog since the beginning then you know how long I suffered with depression. Like most people who got smacked in the face with depression at a young age, I never thought about what my life would look like when I was older. August is my birthday month and on the 14th I’ll be 38.
Never in a million years did I imagine what 38 would look like.
A few days ago, I was so excited to go to bed so that I could wake up the next morning and do fun things. (Fun things being watering my plants, creating art, reading a webtoon I’m currently obsessed with, finishing an old season of the Great Food Truck Race, play the Sims, and I had yummy lunch plans).
My life is 99% boring but when I realized how excited I was for the next day to do those boring things my heart did this happy flip-floppy thing because, for a huge chunk of my life, this gentle kind of happiness/excitement to exist wasn’t a thing for me.
There is life on the other side of depression.
Sometimes it takes a long time to get to that point and a combination of a lot of types of work whether that’s finding the right meds that work for you, finding the right therapist/therapy, or being able to manage outside factors. It’s hard work and it’s also unfair work because many people aren’t put to the disadvantage of having to spend so much time, money, and resources on getting their brain to “brain” properly.
But if you’re in one of the moments when things are hard, I want to tell you that it will be okay. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. That’s something I wish someone would have told me when I was up late, unable to sleep, even though my spirit was exhausted.
Just try to handle the next few hours ahead of you and then the hours after that.
Reach out to your support system if you can.
Do your best to turn your attention to the things that aren’t going wrong.