My friendships aren’t where I’d like them to be, my apartment is a mess, I’ve been a bundle of panic and stomach aches, I’ve had nightmares, and all-in-all I’ve just been pretty miserable. I want to fix all of the ‘outside’ stuff so badly. I want to fix my friendships that have fallen apart and let those people know that I love them. Sometimes you just have to have faith that things will work out.
I’m more of a bend-things-to-my-will-girl personally. It’s not doing me any favors at the moment. Yesterday was a lesson in letting go and relaxing. I was on twitter and I made mention that there were so many things in my life to fix and I didn’t know where to begin. The overwhelming response from my wonderful “tweeps” was to concentrate on one thing at a time. Advice well given. I’m trying to concentrate on me.
So I made a date with myself.
Yesterday, I went to a day Spa and got a wonderful, wonderful, massage. Afterward, I stopped at a cute 
kitchenware store and dreamed of all of the wonderfully, yummy, desserts I could make with all the cute cupcake pans (If I was so inclined to bake, which I am not).Then I got all dressed up and did my hair in pretty braids, while wearing my beautiful turquoise jewelry. I then went and saw Harry Potter and I refused to be bothered by the fact that I was alone, because I had fun. I enjoyed the movie and it was great. Then, I came home and slept in and today I find myself in a good mood.
It was a good day. It was self-care.
I’m going to take a nice hot relaxing bath soon. I’m going to have mid-morning tea. I actually feel like writing, I feel like being creative, I feel like putting myself first. Just having a day for myself has made me feel so much lighter. The burdens have begun to lift. The anxiety has begun to fade. Hopefully, I can remember that putting myself first leads to more happiness than anything else.
If you’re feeling a little blue, I ask you to take some time for yourself tomorrow or this weekend. Plan it out. Make it good. You can even create your own spa day and have a Harry Potter movie marathon. Best date ever.
This is so awesome, Dominee! You are turning things around, one step at a time. It's the only way to do it.
Kudos to you for taking care of yourself, first! ♥
So glad you're feeling better. It's amazing what taking a step back and just letting go will do. Keep loving and taking care of yourself – I know things will flow perfectly.
So… remember when I mentioned it was a goal of mine to read your whooooole website? Well, I'm renewing my project of reading your old posts up to current posts. I'm pretty sure I've read all the ones from mid 2012 on, but I want to be sure! I sure feel you in this post. It's similar with what I went through with my recent breakdown. But also (looking at the date) I was thrown back to my experience of watching the last HP film in when it was in theaters a couple of times. It was awesome but I sure cried lots over Snape's death scene (I thought that they actually did it better in the movies than they did in the books)!